i can feel this body dying all around me

i guess if anything interesting had happened to me today i'd have something to write about. as it is all i've got is a headache and a pain in my neck that won't go away. I'm looking forward to and dreading moving at the same time. i doubt it will make any difference but i am hoping that if i get above ground i won't be so depressed all the time. also the slightly dilapidated and ugly condition of the apartment i have now makes me feel like trying to make it look nice is a hopeless excercise. and the ants i still haven't got rid of. then again, i am comfortable down in my rut and i'm not sure just moving is enough to get me out of it when i'm not entirely willing to anyway. maybe if i start working out properly that will help. and i probably shouldn't resort to living in books. oh yeah and i should work harder at school too. wah wah wah. this entry sucks. i need make up an interesting part. HAHAHA yeah right. i didnt even get around to doing laundry like i meant to. then i might have had some kind of wacky laundromat story. i was also supposed to get blood work done but it is too late now, the lab closes at five.and i am afraid besides. i alse meant to clean up, which i started. i picked up some stuff off the floor and vacuumed the rug but there is a mountain of dishes still because when i get mopey i eat a lot and dont wash them. i am tempted right now to go to the grocery store because i havent got anything good left but i know i shouldnt really. i ran out of books to read and that makes eating less enjoyable because i can't concentrate toooo much on it. yeah.