ape self prevails in me still

i've been suffering from insomnia lately, at least the last week or so, i try to fall asleep at night but i cant so i read or do something else and then i need to do things in the daytime so i ended up getting about four hours of sleep for every two days. then i slept all day today, i went to bed around three and didnt wake up until 7 pm. i was confused at first, i thought it was 7 am. i had so many strange dreams.i will keep them to myself though. i tried to call cam but there was no answer. i wanted to talk to him because he sounded so sad in his journal and i havent called him in forever. i want to go to the library tomorrow and look for some reference books to draw from, i want to keep practicing even though i have no drawing class this semester. does anyone want to buy me a scanner? i wish i had a scanner.